Seeing these two young men made me think of our Marin. We know he has been up for adoption since at least July of last year. Maybe longer? Just by chance we never found out he was 3 hours away from Nellie (which results in a longer trip) until recently. Would we have adopted him if we had known? It's more time off Nate doesn't have. He could have waited forever for his family and never found them. Nate isn't happy he has to take more time off but is very happy that he didn't know until now because now we are in love.
|Jericho's self portrait.|
|Very unflattering picture of me by Jericho. This must be how I look to him.|
Adoption isn't all roses. Children come out alienated and angry and crushed. Biological children come out of families the same way. There are no guarantees. When I worked as a family therapist I was convinced time and time again that family is the number one important soul enhancing life shaping experience we can have. It creates who you are.
|Photo by Jericho.|
So I turn again to God and ask "please?". Please God heal his heart. Please God heal all their hearts.
Heal those who have been hurt in family and those who have found their happiness in family. And I have to ask Him. Since relying on myself only leads to pain and fear. I've done that enough already in this life and I don't want to do it anymore.